shi*t, truth, and everything in between

when i first attended school in puericulture, my cousin, ate karen, and i were classmates. She was first honor and i was second honor. then we moved from place to place and went back to live in cauayan. she’s studying elementary at South Central and my mama opt us to study in North Central. Then we went in the same school in highschool. After graduation we were in different college but we took engineering courses. Sya chemical ako naman Civil. we were roommates in the boarding house of manang **** (churi i forgot the name), then we rented an apartment after 2 yrs because our siblings are going to college then. then that’s when we stopped doing things together bec she already have her sister with her and i am with my brother. Things turned differently when she worked in Laguna, she lived there and things become complicated, we have to move out na. after so long a time, i ddnt see much of her save for some occassions when we all see each other in the province in our Lola’s big house. Then just this weekend, she got married.

All these memories waltz in my head as she walked down the aisle. she’s still stout. looked tired from taking care of her baby boy. her young parents beside her. i cried. we made realizations and decisions about love. she told me that if she chooses gilbert, no matter how hard life will be for them, she’ll still be happy. i thought, how could she make her life like this? her husband is not somebody but he love her and their baby very much. Life will be hard for them. im not sure how happy she is. i think so maybe. to love and to hold……

sabi ni paulo, bilib nga ako kay ate karen kasi nilunok nya lahat. masaya naman siya. he made me look unsupportive but the heck. nasasayangan lang naman ako dahil nag-aral sya.. and now that she finished school, she just got married and have to start her family without being able to help much of her parents. but life is simply that. will love be enough? some say no, that we should be practical nowadays. but who knows?

i just really hope for some good rain to shower on her.