Archive for July, 2005

joel: msta na?

Monday, July 18th, 2005

work => just gettin  through normal everyday humdrum ..
work is fine.. contract is due on august 15 (mrln’s bday).. hoping for better pastures if there’s any…. or else.. plan B should materialize..

lovelife=> very much single.. there’s this event on saturday for singles and my friend invited me… but i feel so negative about it… i still feel like falling inlove is a crime…

something new => today, i learned that there are a lot of money changers in malate.. i discovered exotic restaurants there and would want to try them out one day.. was supposed to do foreign exchange in SM but i was late by 30min. sef, gave the best  suggestion that there are these blackmarket non-closing money exchangers in malate.. so there….

chikka => 2 professors are gettin married.. hehehehe wana buzz??

sheryll and I planned this day to make a blessing log.. neat eh? we wanted to do a lot of things and felt like time is running out. …almost in the middle of teen life… we’ll never know what will happen next. what if she got married next year? what if i die tomorrow? (oh Lordy, please dnt let that happen.. i still got my 3 boys).. waaahhhhh…. ewan..

All Soul’s weekend

Sunday, July 10th, 2005

Sunday, November 02, 2003

All Soul’s weekend

i was at the province this weekend to observe my first all souls for my mom..

Nov 1
signal 3 herald my arrival..Ahhh home sweet..good thing papa was at the station, he drove me home ..excited i am, i quickly arranged the flowers and presented ‘em at my mom’s.. i was amazed with the way i did..

I missed the bucolic life. Home was still the same but the sofas mama bought was at the second sala.. i know grandma will always remember mama for that.. she narrated me so many times about their last talk.. Granny was walking round and round mama like a chicken "Mommy baket?"mama asks. A tear fell from her.." Lorna, sana huwag kna umalis..tutal pag napatayo na yung computer shop kayo ni renie ang mag-mamanage".. " naku, mommy,mahirap dito…….bigyan niyo lang ako ng 2 taon.. basta makuha ko lang si karen at si joan".. I looked at mom’s pic and picturing that one cloudy day.

i was asleep the whole trip but i still felt drowsy..i headed for the sheets after breakfast.. there was no electricity due to the typhoon but the air was cold.. so it was ok..

It was al rainy the whole day so we just stayed home.. everyone was at the salas.. my papa and bro playing the guitar.. cousins doin cross-stitches.. and me.. hahaha would you believe.. solving licensure exams… all after praying the rosary..

Nov 2
i prayed last night for the storm to be gone.. And God heard me.. the sky was cloudless. Very blue. but it was scorching hot. We went to hear mass and headed for the cemetery.. there’s no much people around.. Our family is one of the largest in town and we all gave our respects to those who were present. " o asan ang mama mo?", Lola lourdes asked.. i dont know if she knows anything whether my mom’s gone or rather where is she rsting like that because whenever i attend gatherings i am always asked "kamusta mama mo? Asan mama mo?" i said " Nasa bahay po".. " ha? anung? Yung mama mo?", i repeated " nasa bahay po".. i continued puzzling her.. " hindi yung mama mong patay!" AYe.. naman.. the term.. the term… i was silent at that.." Inuwi nila un ashes ng mama nila.. nasa bahay" My auntie explained. I left them and went to look at my Grandpa’s tomb..

Granny used to say that my great Lolo Antero’s own was the biggest. And as you notice the "lapida" was scribbled in Spanish i could work out the meaning from there. I know RECUERDO de AMOR means memories of Love.. the epitaph read "Recuerdo.. hermana,hermanos,sobrina,sobrinos,y amigos" something like that .. and underneath his was Dona Lutgarda Zipagan…

The whole cemetery is starting to get crowded so we just stayed a little while and left. In the afternoons.. My dad bro and i went to the market.. where i meet my friends mj, lei,and hydz… we went to eat merienda… until 5 hyds and i were left and went to their house..then went to the Memorial where my aunties are.. stayed there until 7pm.

Dinner was a scrumptious one!! yesterday we had Serkele, pinapaitan, karahay..then today canton, bisuelas sa taba.. kulang nalang bulalo.. All favorites!!

At 8pm Lolo Lome arrived. He asked how was i doin. A lot of talk from there askin if i could do roads… or just vertical bec they have this construction…So ano ang masasabi ko? im just a mere graduate still struggling for the board exams.. Well, tito enio said, i could make use of apprenticeship.. the term …

After i finally had everything packed.. i stayed beside my moms ashes.. she wanted to be thrown in the sea as soon as possible.. and the two sides of the family couldnt meet.. all i know is that im just happy she’ still there.. at least.

i gave her a kiss and bade my goodbyes .. In the end, even if i only there for 2 days.. i know that my stay was meaningful and productive. i am packed with all the goodluck from my family and friends..and moments with mom.. That was just important for me.

Now im back in Manila to finish my business…

Alay sa ina

Sunday, July 10th, 2005

This poem is dedicated to our beloved mothers..
Lloyd’s mom - Adelaida Magno
and my mama- Lorna C. Augusto-Mallillin

Ina,
nilapitan kita at binigyang
titig na kailanmay di ko
na magagawa pa.
Tulad ng mga bulaklak
na hindi mo makikitang malalanta.
Kung nakikita mo….
Ika’y naroroon sa
lugar na hindi mo kinaroroonan
May luha akong
inihanda mong
hindi ko mailabas.
Dahil matibay ka
At gayundin ako
Dahil pinalaki mo ako.
At kahit ba makakaya
ko ang lahat..
Hindi ganito ang nais ko..

At ang lahat ay alaala na nga
Ng pagmamahal mo…
Ng pagmamahal mo…